Frederick Schmidt: What Is 'The Dave Test'?

Excerpted from The Dave Test: A Raw Look at Real Faith in Hard Times by Frederick W. Schmidt (Abingdon Press)

"God, help me, where do you start?"

That was the plea an old friend from high school posted on Facebook a few weeks after his sister's death. She was forty-eight years old.

Where do we start? How do we care for ourselves and for one another when life . . . well, when life just sucks?

When jobs or life-giving relationships end?

When a physician says that we have weeks or months to live?

When a child dies?

When an illness or a handicap forces us to live around its demands and limitations?

Those questions have dogged me for years and for a lot of reasons. Some of them are personal. Some of them are professional. I am an Episcopal priest. People expect clergy like me to know what to say in awful situations. But we don't always know. Sometimes we don't have a clue what to say.

Recently that quest for what to say in bad situations acquired new urgency. Seven years ago I learned that my brother, Dave, has cancer. He has not just any kind of cancer but life-ending cancer-the kind that guts your life, leaves you with nothing, and then kills you.

Dave is also a Christian. So initially he looked to the church for answers to the "God-help-me-where-do-you-start" question. That isn't surprising. He is a Baptist, and going to church runs deep in Baptist bones.

But Dave doesn't go to church anymore. The church really doesn't speak to his life.

He explains it this way:

If the preacher isn't using stained-glass language that I can't pin down and apply to my life, then instead he is blowing sunshine up my ass, telling me the whole experience is a blessing in disguise.

I'm a fifty-something hand surgeon. I operated on 120 patients a month until I discovered that I have brain cancer. I have a glioblastoma grade four tumor. All but 3 percent of the people who have this type of tumor are dead within a year.

What in hell am I going to do with my life that is going to be more of a blessing to other people than what I was doing?

It's hard, he points out, when you've been told that you have a brain tumor to hear people tell you that "God has a plan," that "the best is yet to come," or that God is giving you "a blessing in disguise." When you say that to someone who has a tumor that claims the lives of all but 3 percent of those who have them within a year, the words are worse than useless.

It's no surprise, then, that the two friends he has who speak most readily and directly to him about the spiritual demands of life are no-nonsense, plainspoken recovering alcoholics. They lack the churchy, theological vocabulary of a priest or pastor. They haven't studied the Scriptures in any formal sense of the word, and they don't go to church.

What they have done is sharpen what they believe, testing the shape of their spiritual convictions against the hard realities of life. They care for one another, face the truth, tell the truth, and look for truth that they can hold on to.

"The institutional crap doesn't mean anything to them," my brother observes.

Both men-and others whom I have met-are people who pass what I've started calling the Dave Test.

The Dave Test is a set of ten questions you can ask yourself when life sucks or before you talk to someone whose life is in the same sort of place. It is a test that will keep you from:

Thinking and saying hurtful things

Looking for comfort at the expense of others

Using stained-glass language

Defending broken ideas about God


It is a test that will keep you:

Honest about just how harrowing life can be

Present to your friends

In touch with God


What we are told and what we say to others when life goes to hell can be crushing or comforting. It can ring true, or it can sound like a pack of lies. If you are looking for God, honesty, answers, direction, and peace (or if you are trying to help others find them), then apply the Dave Test before you open your mouth or believe what you are told. No flinching, squinting, or sugarcoating the truth.

This book is devoted to ten Dave Test questions:

Can I say, "Life sucks"?

Can I give up my broken gods?

Can I avoid using stained-glass language?

Can I admit that some things will never get better?

Can I give up trading in magic and superstition?

Can I stop blowing smoke?

Can I say something that helps?

Can I grieve with others?

Can I walk wounded?

Can I be a friend?


I tackle one of those ten questions, offering some thoughts about how you might find your own, more durable answers and deeper ways of living and exploring answers that might be misleading or hurtful.

I invite you to use the Dave Test not just to examine the value of what you think, do, and say. I urge you to use the questions to craft a different way of living and caring for yourself and for others.

The Dave Test is not a method. No one ever saved a friend by arming oneself with the right answers or by making compassionate noises. What we need when we suffer are companions who are, by nature, able to walk with us and love us. Each of those people will look a bit different. Some of them will look very different from what you might expect.

When I shared an earlier draft of this introduction with Dave, he sent it along to one of his friends who wrote back:

Thanks, buddy! It reads well and is embarrassingly kind toward your two a**hole friends. Doesn't he know how we laughed when you fell in the lake in Canada? . . . Yes, he mentions going to the shooting range, but why doesn't he mention that we comment that you can't see for sh*t? . . . P.S. Where are you? Are you and your truck available on Friday afternoon? And don't give me sh*t about being out of town or not feeling well. This is all about me.

There is no prescription for caring this way, and this version of caring might not be your cup of tea (or bottle of beer). You may not like the language or this kind of humor. For example, my wife would not talk to her friends the same way that some guys talk to one another.

That's not the point. You don't need to use the language of Dave's friend's e-mail as your model. Here's what happened:

Dave's friend acknowledged Dave's illness and its difficulties.

He treated Dave like a whole human being who didn't need to be coddled or pitied.

He used humor.

He talked to Dave like an adult whom he still expected to function in the world.

And he gave Dave a job, even if it was just lending Dave's pickup truck to a friend.


There were other things that didn't happen:

My brother's friend didn't try to make himself comfortable at Dave's expense by minimizing his struggle.

He didn't assume a faintly tragic tone and try to make Dave a project or a charity case.

And he didn't try to make himself feel good at Dave's expense by somehow calling attention to "what a really good friend he has been."


That's a lot to accomplish in the few lines of an e-mail message, but it's all there and captures the goal of this book. The Dave Test is designed to start us on that journey of becoming our own versions of people who care: people who can be them-selves, who have found a new place to sit with their own suffering, and who can walk with friends in the hardest of times.

This journey is about soul craft. It's about growing up and about becoming fully alive, fully human, and completely available to the people we love.

Suffering and sorrow are not things God sends our way, but they can and do radicalize life. We can allow that radicalization to grow within us. We can let it change, deepen, and ennoble us. Or we can run from the challenge it presents. But if we do run, then we will live our lives in hiding-hiding from ourselves, from one another, from life's realities, and from God.

My hope is that this book will provide a place to do the kind of soul work that will spare us that experience and enrich our shared journey.


About the author:

Frederick W. Schmidt , author of The Dave Test: A Real Look at Real Faith in Hard Times (Abingdon Press) holds the Rueben P. Job Chair in Spiritual Formation and directs the Rueben P. Job Institute for Spiritual Formation at Garrett-Evangelical Theological Seminary in Evanston, Illinois. An Episcopal priest, spiritual director, and retreat leader, he is the author of seven books, including When Suffering Persists and What God Wants for Your Life. He also writes and blogs at Schmidt and his wife, Natalie, live in Chicago with their Gordon Setter, Hilda.