a christmas eve prayer for those who do not go to church

   Lord, I don't go to church much.  I don't go at all...Well, I go at Christmas. I'm home then.  I feel drawn to it. I like the Christmas Eve service, the coolness of the air.  I feel like a child again...it's surreal. I know folks make fun of people like me.  What can I say?  I've drifted...but there is a pull back. Are You speaking to me? I hear something in the sermon, sometimes,  but mostly it's the music and the candles. What is it about those candles? And the darkness?The darkness...or maybe it's the light, I suppose.  Light and darkness. I know about light and darkness.  I live in both.  I've got some of both in me.  I'm basically a good person, I think,  but I struggle...I know about light and darkness.  But I want to be closer to the light.  I want to light that candle and sing those words: "And in the dark street shineth,  the everlasting light..." I would like to live in that light, Lord.I would like to come home.  I would like to be born again.